Stop the madness!

I hate when my life gets chock full of the crazy. Example of my craziness: Sunday, I started working on something rather important that I had to get done and done right. I ended up staying up all night to work on it, literally. I went to sleep about noon THE NEXT DAY. Of course, since it was already noon, I couldn't sleep too long. Plus, I had other stuff to do. So I slept for just a few hours and when I woke up I started working on the research paper I had due Monday night. I was checking out the grading rubric to make sure I didn't forget anything when I found out the article we were reviewing was supposed to be a certain type of article. What?? That was nowhere in the instructions! So, I had to start all over and find a new article (which was a pain in the ass because it had to be from a peer-reviewed journal, and normally to get the full text you have to go to your college library, but my library was closed so I had to deal with the limited options from online) and then speed write it to get it in on time. Ay yi yi.

So here we are, well after midnight, and I'm wide awake because I've only been up a relatively few hours (I think I woke up around 4:00?) I was going to go take a shower and attempt to go to sleep, but I figured I'd take advantage of the opportunity to update this blog first.

I feel like continuing to complain because I am FRAZZLED, but let's not go there.

The weight loss front: Things have stalled, thanks to the aforementioned frazzling (and a previously mentioned back injury). But I'm not gaining, so I'm not complaining too much right now considering I'm not paying enough attention to what I'm eating (I don't even know the last time I bought groceries -- I've basically been living off of canned food, which as you know has tons of sodium) and my activity level has gone way down (time spent at desk has gone way up). I do need to update my sidebar sometime soon, though.

When the shit storm comes (as it inevitably does from time to time), it's always so easy for me to get disappointed in not sticking with my plan 100%, or, even worse, just not making a plan. I'm far from the "what's the point" stage, but I'm definitely disappointed that I haven't been making time for meal planning and regular exercise. In addition to the school thing, and the work thing, I have a new thing... A little secret of mine.... (I'm getting married).

Maybe this announcement should be at the top of my blog where I can sing it from the blogger rooftops, but I think I'm still in shock so I haven't been making a big deal out of it. Plus, as I've told my boyfriend, I'm not officially accepting his proposal until he "gets it right." (I give that poor boy hell, I'm glad he puts up with me) It's weird, though, because we just kind of started planning before he actually asked (hence the "getting it right" thing... it's not like he got down on one knee and proposed, or like I have an official engagement ring. It's coming, but I think I'll have to wait a little while now because he wants it to be a surprise). Is it normal to plan the wedding before you're engaged? Probably not, but we've never been normal. And we've been together for a few years, so, y'know, there's that. Plus, we're kind of going overboard so we really need to start planning now. We're very proud of our Irish heritage, so we're having an Irish wedding. In Ireland. In a castle. We have the date set and everything, all we need now is to get engaged!

The upside of this: More motivation to lose weight (though it probably won't kick in right away, because we're not getting married for another year--but did you know dresses are more expensive if you're larger than a 16? I did not, though I guess it makes sense because of the extra fabric). The downside: I have been going crazy trying to get the details sorted as soon as possible. The Ireland thing was a recent change, so I need to re-figure how much things are going to cost (before I had somewhat of an idea because we were going to get married in California, so I knew how much the venue, the photographer, the cake, etc., would be. But obviously that's all got to change). We also never had a date set before, so I don't have all the money saved up, so I need to figure out if we're good or if I need to start saving more aggressively. SO, in addition to going crazy over work and school, I've also been researching my wedding like a crazy woman. I tend to obsess over things like that, which doesn't help.

So, anyway, I have plans to turn that obsession around to my favor so I can get my ass back to work (health-wise). I still want to try to reach goal by the end of the year, despite my recent almost-month of crappy. It's not going to be easy, but I still want to work toward it and get as close as possible. It's going to require some reconfiguring of dates, though, which I plan to do soon, once I can sit down with a calendar and actually figure out what it's going to take.

Having said that, I just noticed I'm actually very tired (it just hit me all at once a few paragraphs up) so I am off to SLEEP. I was supposed to work one of my new part-time jobs in the morning but apparently his wife got wind of it so I don't have to go in now, which is awesome because I need to catch up on sleep. (The wife: Long story short, she's crazy - literally, fresh out of the institution and everything - and very controlling, which is a bad combination. So, since he made the decision to have me help a couple days a week without consulting her, she's pissed. FYI, this isn't a jealousy issue, as far as I know. Apparently it's because she doesn't feel he has the money to pay me, and she seems to think he's paying me big bucks, and she'd rather scream than listen to facts.)

Goodnight, all!